Full Circle

Published in "The View From Olympia" by Half Moon Books in July 2020

Full Circle

My wheels and head are spinning,
windscreen crazed,
my world turned upside down.
There is no pain but I can't move.
I black out.
Lights flash past as I wake on the trolley.
Later, the consultant is professional
and explains things I don't really hear.
There are five stages of grief, or maybe seven.
Hope is arguable.

Rehab, setbacks, frustration, but the worst
of all is pity.

And now, out of my usual chair,
I am ready. All the years of pain, work
and yes, hope, bring me here.
The stadium is full, and above my heart,
that I often wished would just stop beating,
is the red, white and blue.
I look up and see the rings,
and I know I have come full circle.
My wheels will be spinning once more
and this time I will be in control.


Tim Fellows 2019