Friday, 30 November 2018

The Fallen

I wrote this after walking along the side of the Thames in November 2018, 100 years after the end of World War I.



The Fallen

On a crisp November day
under a listless pale blue sky
I saw, beneath my feet,
Autumn's fallen.
A multitude of shades and hues,
all shapes and sizes,
scattered on the earth.

The dirty earth
where some, among the first to fall,
were merged with the mud.
Trodden down by those
whose only goal along the path
was the next half mile.

Some still looked alive,
blown away in their prime.
Too young
to lie like this
among the dead.

Some remain above this realm of death
Hopeful as they face the sun
As Time's swift river passes by
Until at last their race is run.

Tim Fellows 2018

Friday, 23 November 2018

Protest Poem

I wrote this a few weeks ago in support of the 3 protesters jailed for stopping lorries entering the fracking site in Lancashire. Thankfully they were freed on appeal.



Protest Poem

Democracy is fragile,
it's like a game that's played
with secret deals and handshakes
hidden in the shade.
Democracy is flexible
when there's money to be made.

Taking back control
is just a front page splash
when you've one hand on the levers
and the other grabbing cash.
If anyone dares to protest
it's they who feel the lash.

You point your grubby finger
at the Brussels bureaucrats
You lie about their power,
claim that you're the democrat.
But your abuse of authority
shows that you're the cat who's fat.

From Peterloo to Kinder
the trespass in the peaks
to Orgreave and the Poll Tax
it's justice that we seek.
But you clamp mouths with heavy hands
when the people try to speak.

Now you misuse the system
to crush any dissenting voice
when the frackers come to town
the locals get no choice.
As the protests end in prison
you silently rejoice,
rejoice,
rejoice....

Tim Fellows 2018

Sunday, 18 November 2018

Memorial

In memory of the millions killed in World War I




Memorial

We remember them in black and red
Millions slain in muddied ground
The dead were piled upon the dead
In blood and tears their hopes were drowned

We see them now in black and white
In uniforms so crisp and clean
Young faces scrubbed and shining bright
Before the nightmare stole their dreams

So when we stand in solemn row
Honouring names all carved in stone
Do any of us really know
why souls like poppy seeds were sown?

Tim Fellows November 11th 2018

Friday, 16 November 2018

White Feather

This one was written at the first of Ian Parks' Peace Workshops in Doncaster earlier this year. It was read out at The Cast in Doncaster as part of Doncaster Choral Society's "Lest We Forget" concert.

White feathers were handed out by women during World War One to any young man who was walking the streets not in uniform, to shame and humiliate them into joining up. They were also posted to known conscientious objectors.



White Feather

Why did you feel the need to share
those perfect pure white feathers?
Plucked bitter from the wings of birds
whose peace was cruelly shattered.


Your face is torn and twisted
as you caw your words of hatred
for those who see no reason
to kill a fellow human.

I take your gift, soft smiling,
I am proud of my heart's calling.
However you despise me
I'll stand my ground with honour.

No blood will stain that feather
This bird will sing forever

Tim Fellows 2018

Friday, 9 November 2018

4.30 am, France, Summer 1918

"Stand to, me bonny lads,
Stand to and make you ready.
Stand to, me bonny lads,
Hold the line right steady.
Let bright bands rule the flame;
This day shall bear your name.
Stand to, me bonny lads,
Hold the line right steady." - John Tams


4.30 am, France, Summer 1918

I wait for the explosions
that come when dawn is breaking,
when darkness fades like phantoms
of my mutilated comrades.

Death is my companion
and fear is our lieutenant
who stalks the stinking trenches
barking his commandments.

The rats are getting ready
for they will feast by sunset.
The guns will be their waiters
who serve a varied menu
from many different nations.

I think about my mother
as the shells are dropping.
My love of King and Country
crumbles like the breadcrumbs
that she used to put in puddings.

I recall she always told me
that nothing should be wasted
I recall
she told me
nothing.....

Tim Fellows November 2018

Friday, 2 November 2018

Dedicated to Wilfred Owen


On 4th November 1918 the poet Wilfred Owen was killed during the crossing of the Sambre–Oise Canal, exactly one week (almost to the hour) before the signing of the Armistice which ended the First World War, and was promoted to the rank of Lieutenant the day after his death.We studied his poetry and that of other war poets at school and his work, and tragic story, had a profound impact on my poetry and my view of war. This is my tribute to him, reflecting his time recuperating from PTSD.

Wilfred

One day, whilst musing on the cost of war
my mind fell back a full one hundred years
and saw, behind a dark, oak panelled door
a man with shattered mind still burning clear.

Can he not see, in some strange haunted dream
this future ghost with sad, lamenting eyes
that pleads for him to stay, a silent scream,
but knows that he will never earn his prize?

Yet he refused to yield, he ventured back
where hell fire rained and broken bodies sprawled.
This man, with fortitude that I would lack
stood up when King and blessèd Country called.

And though his poems plead, his words implore
Like blinkered sheep we still march on to war 



Tim Fellows November 2018

Wednesday, 31 October 2018

The Witch

I started writing this a few weeks before Halloween and, in the middle of drafting it I found that, following the incident that inspired it, it was reported that a real life witch had cast a spell on the man concerned. If only dark magic were real....

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The Witch

She unlocks the door, the room is candle cold.
Dust lifted by the urgent draught
dances in the fading light.
Key clink echo, the silence frees
her mind. She has one black thought, one goal;
in a choral chant, a language old
and ancient as the misty seas,
she summons up an icy breeze.

Her buckled hand swipes at the screen
that flickers into life, casts shadows
on the walls where moulds both black and green
hide in the crannies; dark pushes back the light
as autumn day gives up the fight
and yields to ever elongating night.

Mouths move upon the screen but yet
there is no sound, her coal black eyes
are focused now; her breath forms shapes,
tiny animal clouds that form and fade -
dancing deer and stalking wolves
and from her nostrils slithering snakes.

From a heavy great-coat, black (like her hair),
she takes out one, then two small bags.
Slowly and with deliberate care
she looses fraying string that secures
the first; extracts a lump of bread, some fetid
cheese that with maggots seethes and crawls;
yellowing teeth smile at her prize
and she greedily begins to feed.

The second bag begins to twitch and shift
until her head flicks to the side
and with a black and pinpoint glare
she forces it to stop; the thing inside
has felt her power; she begins to rise
and with swift purpose scrapes her chair
and hobbles across the dusty floor

To where a battered cupboard stands;
its doors creak wide as she arrives
and reaches in to its blackened deep
to retrieve a flask, that within her hands,
glows with red and ochre swirls, alive
with colours that seem to hold and yield
an infinity of hues and shades.

She sets it on the table top, between the bags,
the liquid seems expectant now, it glows
and a few bubbles form and rise
then die in a whirlpool that pulls and drags
at everything within its grasp; it knows
that something soon will come its way,
something black and cruel and cold as clay.

She sits again as now, upon the glowing screen,
the man, in tailored suit and perfect hair,
lifts his hand and, with the help of God,
swears to tell the truth. Enraged, but calm,
she hisses God will not help you, this I swear
and colder still becomes her lair
as fingers tap a rhythmic beat upon the wood
and she chants again her black and hell-bound prayer.

As he speaks, with choking tears, his anger swells;
there is no sound in the ice-chill room
but she can hear each and every word; each denial
as he repudiates the accuser's claim
that he would not blacken or defile
until she snaps and stands and yells out


"LIAR!"

and from her coat she pulls with crooked hand
a ball of white that with unholy force she crushes
down to powder that she casts into the air
where it hangs, suspended, transitioning from white
to black and back and now it seems
that each and every word that freely gushes
from his mouth is formed, in translucent light,
and she nods and whispers "Truth be here"

Now, with every phrase he utters, form new words
that no longer pair with those he mouths
but instead the truth that goes unheard
in that distant room is now spelt out
in moon-glow luminescence in this lowly house,
each No becomes a Yes - the air-words summoned
as the truth by this foul and black-cloaked hag
who reaches for the second bag

and grasps the creature that wriggles and squeals
as her dirt-blackened fingernails dig into
its soft flesh; she lifts and drops it in the flask
with one last awful cry it disappears
into the endless depths and now she feels
the power flow from flask to screen
and, as the inquisitor begins to ask
him where he was that night so long ago
he shudders slightly and the woman knows
that he felt it too, a shiver of his deepest fears,
and that the worst, the exquisite worst, is still to come...

The flask is empty now, its liquid gone,
and she slumps back in the ancient chair,
with lidded eyes her mind flowed back
to an earlier time, when her jet-black hair
was smooth and full, not crackling wild,
when she was no more than a child
with startling looks, innocent, not filled
with secrets old as Time itself
and years, so many years, on her dusty shelf.

That day, so many times the earth has turned
since then; their laughter, her fear, as they followed
her home and caught her in a hollow
dragging, pushing her to the floor
the hand on her mouth, the alcohol breath,
she stared into his eyes, was sure
that this would be the moment of her death.
Beyond, the black night sky, shimmering
with a billion stars as time flowed on.
All she could feel was cold
until they were disturbed and ran
and she heard a woman's voice, so old
and cracked yet with unearthly wisdom say,
Come with me, my dear, you have things to learn

Four seasons passed and that man, 
whose eyes she locked with on that day,
stood in the village market square
screaming, ranting, yanking on his hair
until it tore, crying out
Please stop, God help me, what must I do! 
and on his hands began to chew
until fresh wounds had opened up and red blood
flowed to join the blackened stains upon
his shirt; the madness in his eyes
as the gore stained hands began to rise
and reached and plucked with nightmare cries
and that man would see no more
or break another person's soul
and, as he lay thrashing on his back,
she stopped her choral chant,
she was again, complete and whole,
and slipped into the shadows deep and black.

Tim Fellows Halloween 2018

The Colours of Her Skirt

Based on a memory, which may be unreliable, from some time in the 1960s.  With thanks to Sarah Wimbush and Ian Parks for editing and for the...