Friday, 25 May 2018

The Map of the World

For Naomi


Not Naomi!


The Map of the World

The map of the world
Tattooed on your back
Makes distances shrink
Borders and frontiers,
Those man made creations,
are no longer present

We all live together
There are no separate races
Just the good and the bad
All of humankind's faces
Are really just one
As we look to the sky
The same sun moon and wind
That gave us our life
Are symbolised by
The sketchy blue lines
Tattooed on your back

Tim Fellows 2018

Friday, 18 May 2018

While you were sleeping

While you were sleeping

While you were sleeping
Some lights came on
While you were sleeping
Telephones rang
Your gentle snoring
did not silence the orders
You turned on your side
and dreamt of the seaside
Blue skies, breeze salt scented
The cries of small children
Swimming and splashing
Unaware of the horror
unleashed in your absence
without your approval
The cries of the innocent
Screaming and pleading
Grey suits grimly smiling
When you were sleeping

Tim Fellows 2018

Thursday, 10 May 2018

Markham 1938 - Walking Home

On May 10th 1938 79 miners lost their lives and 40 were seriously injured in an explosion at Markham Colliery in Derbyshire. This poem is dedicated to them.

The photo is of the ongoing "Walking Together" memorial representing each of the 106 miners killed in 1938, in an explosion in 1937 and in the overwind disaster of 1973 (see here for my poem about that)




Walking Home

A long day working in the pit
Knowing that we've done our bit
Cough and spit, cough and spit
As we are walking home

We're tired but we've done our job
We've done it all for just five bob
Don't cry, my children, don't you sob
'Cos we are walking home

Blackened like the dark of night
A bath waits by the warm fire light
Once that's done we'll feel alright
When we've done walking home

Seems ages since I've eaten owt
It's like sandpaper on me throat
A beer or two'll get me vote
But we're still walking home

Just one spark; that's all it took
All the mine and village shook
We escaped by pure blind luck
Now we are walking home

Where are Herbert and his lads?
All those kids without their dads
It's well beyond just feeling sad
'Cos they're not walking home

Choked by firedamp, blown to bits;
Burnt and charred in a fiery blitz
It's enough to make you lose your wits
But we're still walking home

Thinking of our brothers, lost,
into their fate casually tossed
By owners that don't know the cost
For they are driving home

Their mining life came to an end
Husband, father, brother, friend
And now their weary way they wend
Forever walking home

Tim Fellows May 10th 2018

Friday, 4 May 2018

Orgreave


The site where the Battle of Orgreave happened in June 1984 is now covered by a kind of country park with shale tracks. Next to it are hundreds of newly built homes and it backs onto the Advanced Manufacturing Park, where I work.



There's plenty to say about Orgreave, but I wasn't there. I wasn't even in the area at that time and only saw it playing out on TV. Now, over 30 years later, it seems like ancient history - the iconic photographs of the time are in black and white and society seems to have moved on. But has it?

Thanks to Ian Duhig for helping to finish the poem.  

Orgreave

I weave through the
short cut, the rat run,
where the men ran
from mounted batons.

Narrow, winding roads
bear the brunt
of muscular 4x4s
that now taxi kids
to school

over land that saw
the fist of State
crash into the face
of Justice.

Lives pass in perfect
box houses
and dogs are walked
on red tracks, sniffing
as if they smell the
long dried blood.

Where tabloids spun
their web of lies
the turbines spin;
the memories
are fading now
to black and white

The pit wheels stopped
but turning still
the old film reel
the men in graves
until history proves
just who was right

Tim Fellows 2018

Thursday, 3 May 2018

June Fellows part 2

Today, May 2nd, was my mum's funeral. It was an amazing turnout with the chapel absolutely packed, a lovely service and a chance, albeit for a sad reason, to catch up with family.



I also discovered my family had managed to create poetry where, so far, I haven't to celebrate her life. My daughter Naomi wrote this - her first poem other than the ones she may have been forced to create at school. She then, with great courage, read it out at the funeral service.

The Captain and the Ship

The spray hits the mast,
damp chill hanging in the air.
Drifting in gloomy dark waters,
With wind whipping through your hair.

The ship takes hit after hit
As the waves start crashing in.
A feeling of being lost
Or something like dread can creep in.

Yet what’s good to remember
In such a dire situation.
Is the resilience of the captain
Out there leading her nation.

For if the ship was to crash,
End up wounded and so broken.
She will feel the pain right with it,
Whispering words so softly spoken.

For if the ship was to sink,
Seems like it’s close to drowning.
She stays right on board with it,
For sense of familiar surrounding.

But there’s lighthouses for storms,
beaming through the swells that mock.
The captain embraces the shine,
To guide away from the rock.

She calls upon the anchor
At a timing so precise.
Not so soon to limit freedom,
But when staying still seems nice.

Then cruising through the calm
Is something not to miss.
The captain takes it in her stride,
Absorbing her tranquil bliss.

She’s the leader, the protector.
Without her things stand still
Yet the ship must learn to drive itself
With some strength and a bit of self will.


Naomi Fellows 2018



My sister Jill wrote this one, which I read out at the committal. She also wrote and delivered a fabulous eulogy. I love these poems - they have set a high bar for me to achieve when, I hope, my poem comes to me.

Looking For You

I'll look for you in all my milestones 
Through the decades still to come.
I'll look for you throughout life's changes
All the races still to run.

And yet, I know that looking isn't needed,
For in so many moments, you'll be there.
You're there in every pink-tinged sunrise
Every golden sunset, every quiet prayer.

You're there in happy children's laughter
There in music, there in song;
You're in the gentle springtime breezes
There as summer days grow long

You're there in every bright dawn chorus
There as starlight fills the evening sky
You're there in winter's first crisp frosts, and
There in white clouds rolling by. 

You're in the misty autumn mornings
There as waves break on the shore
You're there when friends all meet together
There beside me, evermore.

And when, in years to come
A younger hand with tender care
Takes my own, and holds it fast in theirs
I'll look for you, and You'll be there. 

Jill Vavasour 2018

Friday, 27 April 2018

June Fellows 1938-2018

My mum passed away last Sunday, 13 years to the day after my dad.



I can't think of a more fitting tribute on this blog than to post two poems by my dad written for, and to, her.

I Wish I'd Been The One To Say


I Wish I'd Been The One To Say
"Could I but compare thee to a summer's day"
Or, "A rose by any other name would smell as sweet"
Or "Blazing fire and Christmas treat"
Or, "The curlew tolls the knell of parting day"
But I'm not a Shakespeare or a Shelley or Gray
I cannot write in phrases fine
Or put in words these thoughts of mine
That tell from deep within my heart a feeling true
That says "My dear I do love you"
So I, with these few faltering sentences will say
May every blessing God can give be yours my dear today.

J.E.Fellows 1979

To June - The Year of 1976

Winter

             Out in the cold
             Helping the old
             Keeping the home in order
             Up late at night
             Making things right
             For your husband, your son and your daughter

Spring

             Still you went out
             Going about
             Spreading your love all around
             We, in your care
             Found love so rare
             A better friend could not be found

Summer

             Someone in need?
             You went with speed
             Serving and caring for others
             Forgoing rest
             Giving your best
             To mums, dads, sisters and brothers

Autumn

             Living your life
             Mother and wife
             When illness your family struck
             Still you did smile
             Throughout your trial
             Showing your courage and pluck

Christmas

             The year has passed
             All's well at last
             Christmas has come round again
             May it bring peace
             Joys that won't cease
             And health to banish all pain

             What can we do
             To show to you
             Our love for all you have done
             Not to exclude
             The gratitude
             Of daughter, husband and son

             We give of our gifts
             Hoping they lift
             The clouds of midwinter gloom
             May they be too
             Special to you
             In your life may they find room

The future

             Things may look black
             As you look back
             The future? It's not ours to know
             But it will be bright
             It'll work out alright
             Trusting in God as you go

             And in his Son
             God's Gift to man
             At Christmas a long time ago
             Gifts from our heart
             Are but a part
             Of His love, to us, here below

This poem was enclosed in June's Christmas presents from Jill, Tim and myself with our love.

J.E.Fellows December 25th 1976


Friday, 20 April 2018

Heritage Walk

I wrote this as a response poem to my own attack on England's cultural failings in "Back To Blighty" - the walk was from Pleasley Pit to Hardwick Hall last August.


Heritage Walk

England, when your sky clears
and the warm August sun melts our sorrow
there is nowhere so beautiful.
To take a walk and be reminded
of your careless elegance;
where the constant duality of your heritage
is laid bare.

Opening where miners once plied their trade
Energy expended and conveyed
upwards and outwards;
now no signs remain underfoot
of that feverish endeavour.
Just the crunch of shoe on gravel
and clip and clop of iron hoof.

To the path once laid with rail and sleeper
engine hauling, dark cargo, clanging,
steam blowing through cutting and 
trailing along high embankment;
now replete with cyclists and walkers, riders,
hounds and owners of different sizes.
A flurry of hellos and good mornings,
or is it afternoon? Smiles abounding
in the rarest of clement days
where the black dog sniffs,
is called, and runs with lolling tongue
flailing in its wake.

The country lane, winding, quiet with
occasional unwelcome interruption
of four wheel drive or disorientated hatchback;
Blackberries, teasing but not ready
for plucking - two weeks or maybe less
for the plump flesh to be ours.

In the cooling arms of the woodland path
where the sunlight probes the thick canopy
and casts dappled light onto dusty forest floor.
Flickering dart of Cabbage White,
lazy drunken weave of bumble bee;
hornet hovering as if observing
the orange fungus, splattered like paint
on the thick fallen branch;
leaves, roots, twigs, and stones
distract us from the impending neatness
of Bess's Vanity.

Stepping through the pastel blue gate;
manicured lawns are legally trespassed
by those who once
would only be permitted there
as workers.
Families play - small bat, small stumps;
small boy, long run-up; releases the ball
but without the required accuracy;
Picnics, ice-creams under the eye of the mighty hall,
its glassed walls rising as rose the engine house
less than three miles distant.

Yet these two places that are so different
are so intrinsically woven into
each others and England's fabric;
We, the commoners, have them in common;
we hold them in our English heart and embrace,
along with them, our contrary heritage.

Oh England, if only on every day
could your warmth so melt our sorrow.

Tim Fellows August 2017

The Colours of Her Skirt

Based on a memory, which may be unreliable, from some time in the 1960s.  With thanks to Sarah Wimbush and Ian Parks for editing and for the...